Stomach in knots, need to vomit....

I am the worse salesman in the world. Well, when it comes to selling myself. Self promotion has just never been my thing.

When it comes right down to it, I would rather SHOW people my value. Show people how ridiculously multi-talented I am so then they can just keep hiring me.

It has worked pretty well for me in the past. I did it with my first freelance gig out of college and that lasted about 10 years.

Then I had a horrible summer of unpaid salesmanship and unemployment that depleted my ego down to zero.

I have been at my present company for about 8 months after an initial 5 week pick-up. It's much better on my stomach to NOT worry every day about my next thing.

As for my stomach issues and need to vomit....
The previous 2 years have been spent trying to learn how to market myself better.

Be a better self promoter. I better salesman of myself.

I have grown to be quite ballsy and confident in email.

Now I need to follow that confidence up with a phone call with a pretty bigwig.
I need to make make him want to create a job or find a project to put me on.

And I really need to vomit...

I guess this never really gets easier.